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My New Year’s Resolution

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Over the years, I’ve made many New Year’s resolutions. But by far, my most important one has been my commitment to medication and treatment for schizophrenia.

Every New Year’s Day, I reflect on Christmas of 2005 and the beginning of 2006.

At that time, I was suffering from undiagnosed schizophrenia, unaware I had the illness.

I spent the Christmas holiday of 2005 hiding inside a public bathroom on a university campus. I knew the building would be locked over the holiday, and decided to arrive early before it was closed. I stayed in the vacant building for the duration of three days, not going out or coming back in.

Only professors with a key to enter the building were around, and there were not many of them. I didn’t even see a janitor the whole time.

My mind was a thick fog. I perceived that I was not bothering anyone, and felt no guilt for hiding in an academic building that was supposed to be locked over the holidays. My only concern was to survive, which required food and some place to sleep.

While confined to the building, I often visited different floors. Every morning, I watched the sunrise through a window on a higher floor. Then, I would return to the bathroom on the second floor, resting and sleeping all night and day. My trespassing was a crime, but I never considered that.

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