When Loving Them Feels Like Abandoning Yourself |
Self-abandonment rarely begins as a conscious choice. Instead, it is something that emerges gradually and is often disguised as selflessness, loyalty, or even emotional maturity. You learn to adapt, wait, explain, and constantly accommodate, not out of a lack of self, but because trying to maintain the relationship feels “safer” than letting go. Over time, this pattern quietly reshapes your inner world while conditioning you to believe your feelings are negotiable, your needs unimportant, and your emotions are “too much." These can all leave your sense of self dangerously hinging on external validation, rather than focusing on your inherent self-worth.
Self-abandonment is a learned pattern of relational responding where you reject, ignore, or deny parts of yourself to maintain the status quo of your relationship, while looking at others to validate and approve your value and worth. It often starts in neglectful and emotionally inconsistent environments where a child learns to jump through hoops to please their caregiver as validation of their worth. Many who experience these kinds of abusive childhoods can become adults with a more anxious attachment style where they are conditioned to prioritize the needs and feelings of others over their own.
In some relationships, self-abandonment is intensified by narcissistic relational patterns where a narcissistic partner lacks a sense of self, which can be experienced as self-abandoning. Instead of showing up as their authentic (whole) self, they curate an image of grandiosity or humility around a false self while........